Monday, March 10: time to rectify

56th Street

Dear seekers of the Zen truth and other simple pleasures. It is Monday, March 10, 2014. I woke up very tired but somewhat relieved that

My Desk

it wasn't yesterday. I went to AAA very late I just had to press on. I got after the meeting a very good Tip on how to calm myself down using

Door Locked at Work

EFT Tapping. It's tapping on the four head and neck the chest and up and other areas the to calm myself down. I checked out a website about it as well. I also found out that my scripts were formally approved

Peter and I Leaving Work

by the insurance company I should be able to pick them up.

Work was pretty quiet today and that was such a relief. I got some stuff done I had some frozen

Got to Meeting at 6pm

samosas which are tasty. By 4 o'clock I was just really tired I had to put my head down a little bit three 430 and five. I did manage to rouse

A Quick Warm UP

myself up to do quick cleanup and take the EL to sit and Springgarden Street. I printed out some sheets and hopefully I can type the things

At Silk City

up and print them out at work tomorrow and get the damn ball rolling for April NOW!! I really don't want to put myself through this again. I put the emphasis on myself since I just

Spring Garden Street

did it to myself really.

It's pretty mild actually I feel the spring in the air and it's nice to come out of work and be 6 o'clock and have the sun still out.

Where I was After Work

Well I arrived at the union hall. I Got my numbers 19 and 20 so I was able to get some coffee at Silk City and it  was delicious! I also had two or three glasses of water because

Listening

I was really thirsty. I got my commitments for both groups at double checking that I have the right date and time and then we sat listen to a meeting when my friend had to leave and I wanted

Getting on the EL this Evening

a ride to get closer to Center City. Took the EL  down to 46th Street  and I arrived at 8:46 PM Eastern daylight savings time!! I got a call tonight that I left my backpack at the meeting. I mean damn, I can't put anything down! Hope the meds help! It was really cool the someone went out of the way to find my number. They asked if I was friends of Bill W. I am I said!! I will go  to 444 N 3rd Street after the 10 at 10:30 meeting. I got to talk only about 10 min tonight. I wonder how I will make out this weekend.

Work It Cause Your Worth It: 12-6-2012

Dean 7am

Lots of Calls

 Thursday December 6th was a funky old day. You know like a day in my 50's. It was really an ok day, not bad at all. I went to meeting which was pretty deep. I next went to work with a raging headache and sore throt. Some Advil worked well with that and the lozenges worked pretty good too.
At work the first thing I noticed was the phones. They were the new one's. The new phone system posts messages on the email as .WAV files and it shows the phone number that the call was taken from. by 2:30 I had 15 messages and 29 calls. Another day at the office. 25 years of this got me burnt!

At Belmont and Westminster Aves.

I was Taking the 64 bus to Belmont and Westminster. This photo shows me at 8:30 waiting for the 43 which to Fairmont where my Dr apt is. This bus according to Google maps should be here in 4 min. Behind me is a bar called El Torro. The sign says "Open Sunday." I posted just now. I have a psych apt at 9:30. It's real cold. Gonna walk to a pizza place to snack before telling the Dr that I have sought a 2nd opinion on my meds. I am a bit tense about it

The Office and Waiting Area

Going to Work

He acknowledged that I might have ADHD At the beginning of our session, the Dr was very irritated that I was seeing 2 psychiatrists at once. He was going to "discharge" me. I told him I JUST saw the new Dr. YESTERDAY and he did not prescribe any meds he just had suggested meds. He made a crack that I "was a big boy" and that I can not tell I have ADHD till I was sober for over 6 months. I corrected him stating I am one week short of 9 months sober. That seemed to mellow him out after he stated that I cant have stimulant due to my alcohol abuse. I said that I KNEW that fact already. He asked me some questions that the other doc had given me. He decided to start me on Welbutrin and ween me off the Zoloft. Zoloft was making my libido a bit slack and well you can figure that out. At this time I am going to stick with Dr. Cohen, now that we had our frank session.  I  got back from Dr. C's office at 11:45pm. After a somewhat combative session. It was the first time that he and I got that way but it was for the best I think.
So all in a day's work. One day at a time. Check this out, I have served with the state for 25 years as of this month. Wes was still at Penn and Stuart was married 2 months. Shit what a long strange trip its been. I can see it is for the best since things do change if if we do not wan them to.

Pete's Pizza

My roommate is AWOL. He had to go to court so I have to wonder if they locked him up. Maybe he is doing Karaoke and singing show tunes. Oh well, my heat is crackin and I am a blogging and drinking iced tea. Staying home Friday and Saturday and  going to NYC on Sunday. Plan to take off next Friday for dentest apt and other stuff.

Removing a Growth

I had a small growth removed 2 weeks ago and just had the stiches done. Dr. Crawford explains the proceedure