Thursday, November 23, 2017

Thursday, October 26: Cooling Off

Well I got up pretty early mentally I was wide-awake and 
 hysically I wasn’t too bad considering I have been a kind of like going to the helium they club last night. It’s something new once or twice a year but I’ve other than that I would end up 
 n the poorhouse between them pushing that you have to buy two entrĂ©es over and above the cover charge. So it’s
 not for the cheapskate in  all of us. 
 Anyhow I got to work and so if you people not too many 
considering how many people are scheduled but it was OK. It 
 ad my frozen Samosa and took five dollars out from the Bodega because I knew I was short on cash until at least tomorrow. 
 nyhow it wasn’t a bad day at work my supervisor was gone. Anyhow left and talk to Lisa for a minute on the texting. She had a bit of a
rough day. I’ve been hot the 7+ as it was showing 
 p which is really a plus. It’s definitely chilly out and I had start looking for 

 ppropriate fall jackets. I’m not sure I have that many or any for that matter. 
  have everything squished  up in my room. As I’m sitting here
 listening to the feelies on my headphones right I just see some guy just walked up 
 ext to some woman and AA and just start chatting. I couldn’t
 pull that off first of all. Maybe self-conscious and not giving a fuck is 
the the anti-creeper 
 ormula. Anyway I really need to get my front partial replaced very soon since it’s really loose. Anyhow the meeting was fine I just was tired as crap. I came home was actually awake enough to cook and then I fell sleep rather quickly. I’ve been watching this guy who like has a website the haters guide to the playoffs and certain teams and what not.

Saturday, November 04, 2017

November 5: insult to Injury: A Friend does NOT Insult Like This!

Mark is basically over here all the time eating my EBT food usurping my time and space and cluttering my ability to hear myself think. He's not my roommate and he hasn't paid rent and this is not OK. He's doing it all because he's afraid to go home and face you and work out whatever isn't going well between you guys. Would you please approach him and clear things up? I can't take this anymore. I've made my boundaries clear and he doesn't get it. It goes right over his head. He blames his ADD blah blah blah… You know what? Time to use those skills he learned in therapy and apply them to a real life situation! He so emotionally needy he needs everybody else to take the first step. And he comes over here and leaves tons of trash and dirty dishes after eating all my food! Who does that to somebody who just got EBT two days ago has no food or money of her own is pounding the pavement looking for work to survive and pay her rent November 1… And my EBT does not renew again till December 14. I do not miss use that program. I take it as an extreme gift… A temporary means of assistance to help me get on my feet until I'm earning enough money to pay my own way. That's what it's intended for. I buy really well thought thought out carefully planned wholesome foods that are Staples and will be long-lasting and give me fortitude and nutritious meals so I can be focused and clear and go out and find work. I don't buy stuff for him to come over and eat in one day. What the fuck? Thanks for listening… I'm in a bad way this morning and extremely exhausted and spent because he derailed my entire weekend. I managed to be productive get things done and get job interviews but he doesn't understand weekends are workdays for me. I can't fritter away my time and put my feet up. I'm surviving here! It all goes right over his head when I try to explain it. He has no clue. Whatever is going on over at your house I can't have him here. I did not sign up for a roommate and my landlord won't allow long-term guests and visitors. Mark is going to get me kicked out! Not to mention I have no furniture and I'm sleeping on the floor… (I was going to ask if I could borrow a couple cushions from the couch near the bathroom on your second floor but Mark told me not to because he said you be mad at him. So I didn't). So I'm sleeping on the hardwood floor with the cats totally sore and uncomfortable Mark comes over there's no furniture here so he's talking with is LOUD voice and my poor neighbors are being disturbed. I'm new here and I can't afford to make a disturbance. I do 90% of my work out of my home which is why I chose to rent alone without a roommate because I know the kind of space I need to stay clear and focused. It's bad enough I need to practice the viola right now on the hardwood floors without any rugs or wall hangings her paintings to absorb the sound. So it's going to be loud and echoey for a few weeks until I can get my things out of storage. So that's bad enough but having Mark with his booming voice late at night disturbing my neighbors is not something I'm willing to withstand. It's a small quiet building of four apartments it's a little residential brownstone. He has zero social awareness! I completely understand what you've gone through being his roommate but he paid rent with you through November 30 and that's where he lives. Not here. There was never an agreement for him to live here. Now he starting to say he'll come over and crash whenever things get too tense between you and him. No! He needs to go home and face the music talk to you and sort this out. Thanks for keeping this confidential. I've already confronted him and he doesn't get it. I really would appreciate if you could open up a conversation with him to clear the air between you guys so that he's not spending all his time over here. Call if you want to… That's basically what I wanted to speak about. Don't give me wrong… You and I both know that Mark is a very good person… Very sweet and generous and helpful and sincere and often supportive. I don't deny he's done things in the past week or two that have been super supportive towards my transition. But that doesn't entitle him to come over here and be an uninvited roommate. He just has no clue about boundaries and what's appropriate. It's like he's a mama's boy who needs to women to do all of the work for him clean up his mess cook his food arrange his apartment. What's he going to do when he moves into his new studio? It's going to be a big learning curve… And I think a very worthwhile life lesson.

Wednesday, October 25, 2017

Wednesday, October 25: Humpin it & Comedy at Helium

Well, I woke up this morning and took a quick shower and figured I didn’t
 have time to eat breakfast till I got to work. I caught the 48 at the end of
 23rd St. and then got off at 18th St. because I missed the stop. Well I  got to  work on time before my su
pervisor. I then tried to go through the slog of unfinished business
 from yesterday. I wasn’t able to go halfway
 through my list of 25 alerts that were sitting there staring at me. A couple
 people did come in. I was left alone so that was good. I always
 appreciate that part. It was definitely a much cooler today 
 han yesterday. It definitely felt more like fall. After work I stop in the coffee 
 hop and then went to Patrick’s. We are invited to go see a comedy show at helium. I had never 
 een there and I haven’t hung out with Mr. Crowe in quite some time. Waiting 
  really long ass line and we saw the liberal redneck dude I forgot his name. He was pretty funny and it was 

 omething different to do. It was pretty overpriced about 25 bucks to get In. All in all was 
a good night out. We walked around afterwards and saw the
 interesting architecture. 

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

Tuesday, October 24: Busy at Work. Sorting it All Out

Well I woke up in time but I just didn’t feel like getting out of bed. 
 t was pretty miserable and rainy when I first got up. I then eventually 
 ot up but I know I was going to be late to work because I need to leave the house till 8:30 AM. I was very fortunate 
 o catch the 48 bus just it was waiting for the red light at 23rd and Fairmount Street. I then took the bus,  then I caught the trolley. Next I caught the EL pretty quickly. I managed to get to work at 9:15 AM 
 nd my supervisor was there so I have the sign and 15 minutes late. I didn’t proceeded 
 o grind away at the alerts and found out I got 20 more alerts put up though I started the day with a total of 60 showing up. I finished about 15 
 f them so I had 60-15 left. I’m very thankful they are not screaming sanctions in my ear with on slot of end of the month end of the
 quarter terminations. As I predicted and expected the dating thing has really cooled off. It is the pattern. I probably need a break from it considering I have
 to figure out a 
 ath and a strategy for my move and figure out where I can spend my money and all that. 
 o my whole spending patterns etc. it’s going to be a lot different I want to the Apple Store to find out how I 
 et those “predictive words“ into my Apple I found out through the genius is that I have to turn on the work predictive.