Sunday September 1: ACCEPTANCE!😮👀

Well September has come around the corner and took a direct turn 

 owards me. I got up showered and fell down some cereal and took my alternate path to Fairmount which is th market Frankford Line

 straight to the Broad Street line. This avoids the made in America traffic am which happens every year on Labor Day weekend thanks for GC and Beyoncé oh yay oh yay oh yay. Anyhow he ran into somebody that I knew who lives

 in South Philly and we had a nice conversation. I can actually talk to people when you’re willing and when I’m willing to get over my bad self😏 so the meeting

 was in as packed as normal and I managed to make it there on time. I had to skip 

  the coffee but the fact is I made it on time it was about the third step  nd that’s always good for me to accept things the way they are and not how I absolutely want them to be 
which is a daily struggle especially when I’m trying to do online dating ha ha. Anyway meeting ended and I might meet Jen for the next meeting at 

 oon. I’m at OCF chilling out people watching and updating blog post. I am not meeting her at 12 noon meeting. It was good I liked it. Then afterwords, we met Wes at OCF I was 

 eally really amped up after only 1 cup of coffee might be the meds are saying to them. They’re going to the gym then having 

 inner and that’s that. I will not be seeing them the rest of the day. After that I walked 

 own Fairmount Avenue to Broad Street and took the Broad Street 

 ine. I decided to hang out center city instead of taking the train all the way

 back home just to turn around. So I talked to Fran for a while and sat

 in Rittenhouse Square eating my chicken Gyro for lunch. Boy that hit the

 spot. I hope I didn’t eat it too soon before yoga. I got the yoga class

 nice and early and the room is surprisingly comfortable when I first got there but my friend didn’t say that way the fans went off and it went up. I think the fact that I had some food barely an hour ahead before class didn’t help much. Tomorrow I plan on hitting 10 am class. I’ll be able to sleep in a little bit that will be good. I’m pretty tired right now it’s about that 6:09 PM and we’re heading through street with a head home and relax and then maybe in the store if it’s anything open in upper dumpy which I think the little store might be over selling Indian wares. f

Thursday May 2nd: Conserving Energy and CDU Oncall

Hi. Left her sleeping almost 12 hours I got up. I was still tired but it definitely 

 hall I got some of my stamina back. Not all of it but about 75% I suppose. I went to meet my sponsor was only a little bit late but that was OK we talked 

  lot and it was good. He’s definitely pushing me to sponsor somebody so I’m not thinking of

 myself all the time and getting all up in my head. I had a coffee but I was really

 in the mood for water. I had two bananas enter energy bar. I had a normal

 breakfast of cereal but that wasn’t enough because I’m so energy to private I just need to keep eating and eating

. Anyhow I got to work and really couldn’t get much myself done 

 ecause they kept paging and with CD for anybody who came in the 

 atter what the reason. He came to head when I basely said I allowed

 what we were talking in the back of out. I got told on him you know that’s

 that’s what people do. It ended up OK cause I didn’t really get in 

 rouble. A friend of mine offered to come to my place and clean it up 

 hat really brighten my day. Just supposed to move out May 8 and I’m gonna take a

 big hit him coming into my life. But at least 50% of it was my fault for allowing 

 hit to go on!!😥🤬how in the world outside my bubbles, Slate online

 and has a summary of the current news as they see it. It’s called The Arc of the Moral Universe Edition. Well it talks

 about a play about Gorbachev & how the #me-to movement seems to be running out of steam since Cavanagh is in 

 he Supreme Court and Joe Biden is the frontrunner. There’s definite 

 ushback as there is with any new movement or idea. Well tonight‘s meeting

 was on a good story called “Acceptance is the Answer to all my Problems.” That’s the chapter

 I should read almost every day. When I focus on problems I have more to focus 

 n positive stuff it’s gonna be a better day. Easier said than done for this guy for this Blogger.

Tuesday, August 29: I Awake in an Odd State

Good last week of August everyone. I had left my phone on and the Phillies
 were playing in the World Series against Tampa Bay. Anyhow, I had a really weird 
 ream last night. I had a dream that my brother John changed 
 is name to Tannick because he got into Jewish mysticism. In the dream Idaho hard time accepting  that he 
 hanged his name. I thought he was being flaky.In the dream, I was  working on acceptance 
 f his new identity. The dream felt so real list
 stick that I was thinking of sending a text to my brother asking if he changed his 
 ame & stuff I think this relate just some things going on in my life. Well I hung out 
 with him in the kitchen for a bit talking about dating etc. I ate cereal
 and then just barely got the 48 bus as it was arriving to the corner. Then I caught the trolley
 pretty quickly and then got the EL at 8:57 AM The battery on my phone is aband I'll 
 robably be 10 minutes late. Well I was a little bit late but my supervisor was later so I was copacetic. I then 
got 
 own to my desk and immediately heard that somebody was here. So I worked
 away while others talked and Houston flooded. Well it's now 3:54 PM and I just went to the Bodega 
 nd got like a cab of soup and a bag of chips and a soda for five bucks. I am
 going to take a work break and heat up some soup. I'm in a really 

 eird mood when I'm not busy at work like I feel like I just want to break down and 
 tart crying. You know nothings happened bad it's really strange. It feels when I sit still and 46 street station that my gut is hollowed out. It started out with a phone call after my date.

Well I was very busy at work I interviewed 11 people in the overflow went into tomorrow which I hadn't intended so I have about six or seven people tomorrow scheduled. And then blessedly I get to sit on the bus and space out and hopefully not get too depressed. Anyhow the rain just kept on going. It's not a very light this morning and now it's pretty much of a steady rain not just stay near Tricia. The good thing is if it's not too windy so I'm probably still work.